Tuesday, June 12, 2012

funny things.

It's funny how things work.  It's funny how the moment you think it's all together it all falls apart.  It's funny how things can look so up and then go down so fast.  It's funny how in the darkest moments you can find some sense of twisted peace.  It's funny how when you think you need someone the most you find the strength to do it on your own. Isn't it all funny..?

I guess that's life for ya.  I typically like to have a plan and a schedule and know what's going on and what I'm going to be doing or not doing.  And this week-ish the plans have all been thrown out the window, burned, torched, evaporated, exploded.. you get the point.  It was the destruction of my said 'plans' where I had to find my own way.

I have been seeking the approval and okay of the people around me and it's only lead to frustration and disappointment on all sides. So, no more.  No gray area. Black and White. Simple. Clean. Clear. Concise.

It's it funny how im writing about having plans go out the window and at the same time making plans for when the plans are out the window. It. does. not. work. but i think i'm too stubborn and/or slow to figure that out. so the plans I started making got ripped up and thrown out.. so off i am planning again. funny how i don't learn. womp.