yucky lifting

Yesterday I said this lifting cycle was going to be a heavier cycle, but I would like to rename this cycle as: everything-carly-doesn’t-do-well-and-add-weight-and-see-how-long-it-takes-her-to-fall-apart.  Fantastic, right?! Personally, I am a huge fan of it all.  At least today I did the agility ladder and box jumps without being yelled at by the boys.  (last time they said I had to make my own agility ladder ‘run’ and I couldn’t think of anything- so they yelled. But then I pulled the puppy-dog face and I got out of it!) But today, I had no one yelling. 

First two exercises: awesome. Second two: awful. I guess today was kind of a test run for when Ellyn is going to be gone. It was not my best day.  I guess part of the difficulty with today was 1.) being without ellyn 2.) adjusting to Steph and her coaching (not better or worse, just new to me and me to her) 3.) doing a new-ish exercise (jerk balance) and then doing an exercise I’m awful at and still trying to do the right way (RDLs).   Lots of places to go wrong, and most of the wrong probably happened today. 

Before this cycle started, Ellyn warned me there were going to be a lot of exercises that would put me in my worst positions, and trying to get my worst positions to the right positions would lead to frustration.  Yup. That happened.  When the jerk balances started I was, probably almost excited for the challenge and being told they would be hard for me.  The first 4 or 5 sets went well, challenging and I had things to work on, but they were going up and I was completing the lifts.  After those first few sets texting Ellyn, listening to Steph, listening to teammates, and trying to process everything and put it into the heavier lifts… no good.   When I had Steph help me with my positions, I decided to take some weight off so I could get into positions and do them properly.  I texted Ellyn with that information and I got yelled at.  Going down in weight isn’t going to help me and isn’t in the program- so I had to go back up in weight.  Went for my last 2 sets. Missed all of the jerk balances (4) and missed the last jerk. Let me tell you how amazing that felt and what a confidence booster that was. Devastating and crushing.

And that brings me to another one of my favorite exercises… RDLs. I was pretty frustrated by the time I got to these. My weight is still pathetic with those and they are still hard for me to do.  Not sure when I'll be up to 140k like my squats are.. I'm literally only half way there. daunting when I think about it like that. {{heavy sigh}}

This post isn't nearly as positive or hopeful as some of the other ones...  I know I will get better and I know I am getting better, but it's frustrating that it hasn't happened. I guess that's why I come back every day... waiting for that day to come. 

**thanks for the chat today Joooooh.  I appreciate it. and wanted to give you a shout-out :)**