im trying

back in the swing of things... getting better... trying harder.. more things to do... more focus to have/get back. Sometimes i dont feel like i have anything to blog because words end up just being words.  and people are tired of what i'm saying and i'm tired of having to constantly defend, explain, and reason myself to others... but i've decided that im going to put more emphasis on what i do rather than what I say.  hopefully people will forget what i've said and go off of what i've done.  that's my goal.  be a woman of action rather than word.  it will take time, but i've got it. and know my actions will tell the story my words fail to...

moving on.

practice today was quick(?) i guess everything felt like it was going fast.  I had to drive back from work to make it to practice and then I had to leave an hour earlier than I normally would- so I was moving.  I had one armed clean and jerk, jerk recoveries and then front squats (are you shocked?!).  Those were the big things for today.  I clean and jerked 100lbs 3 times today... more reps than I had done before- even though they weren't all as crisp, clean and as tight as they should have been... I was still able to do more reps than before... progress. the jerk recoveries were a new thing for my one armed workouts.  Ellyn wasn't sure how much i'd be able to do or if id be able to do them at all... but i did.  again, i went up to 100lbs, but wasn't able to finish the second lift of the set.  i could have been tighter throughout the whole process.  i guess the front squats were the 'highlight' of the day.  we had to go up to a heavy single and then take 90% from that and do 3x3.  I had a new max for front squats.. up 8kilos since my last test and then my 90% for 3 was only 5 kilos less than my previous max.  I've felt myself hit better and tighter positions with my front squats a few times, and i tried to hold on to and keep that right position when i was testing as well as when i was doing my sets of 3.

im trying.

I've decided for the next few (2 weeks) I'm going to work on being as tight as possible.  gotta be good at something, right? So i can work on being tight and holding my breath.  and that's what im going to do.  one day at at time.  one breath at a time. one day at a time. one at a time.

now it's time to prepare for tomorrow. got to get everything in line so there aren't any issues to hold me back from what i'm trying to do.  i need plans for the week, food for tomorrow, letters and emails written, and a little time for myself.

no wrinkles.