Getting out of the Apartment

I've already started to get bored.  I am ready to start working and have a few prospects, but nothing to do right now.  I feel like I have been sitting and doing nothing for so long, but Labor Day was Monday, and today is only Wednesday.  I think it's from the 5 years at Wake doing everything and always having something to do- it's warped my sense of time.  I always feel like I have to be doing something and when my days are over around noon I'm left wondering what to do.  Today I caught up with an old (?) friend and then made some phone calls to jobs and set up meetings (which will happen next week).  That left me stilllllll wanting/needing something to do.  I had put Costco on my list of things to do because they have HUGE bags of boneless-skinless chicken breasts(and now that I'm back on restriction- I'll be eating a lot more of those) so I left the apartment on a little adventure...  before I got to Costco I found a Target and stopped in and got some "spin-pins"(super cool bobby pins that hold massive amounts of hair!)  it took me a few tries to get them to work, but once I figured them out it was GREAT! Costco came and went without anything exciting happening. Except cementing the fact: drivers here are absolutely HORRIBLE.

I am getting more and more settled with the team and practice.  Still working on my crazy feet.  I'm not sure if it's getting better or worse.. I keep thinking I'm doing better- and when I ask Ellyn (or anyone else in the weight room!) they all say I'm rocking on my heels. Gurr.  There were even videos taken of JUST MY FEET so I could see what I was doing.  Of course when I had someone video tape me.. not once, but twice.. my feet didn't move. Not helpful.

I'm not sure if it was before or after the recording I thought of the bright idea to tape my toes to the platform so I could hear/feel when I was rocking back. Still not the most helpful. Working on it.. always working. I did get better today. My over head squats (OHS) were quicker and tighter than usual.  Working on the speed of the squats and being able to 'bounce' out of the bottom of the lift.  It translates directly to snatch and is helping me build confidence when I get heaver weights over my head (while snatching) I will be able to stand up with them.

Sometimes it's hard for me to say "I got better today" (especially with the technique specific exercises/lifts) because there are things/positions/rhythms  I am still working on and haven't gotten down.  To me, it seems like keeping my foot FLAT on the floor would/could/should be an easy fix- and as Ellyn says, "Don't do that". Got it. Trying not to. But still doing it. ummm dilemma.  frustration. determination.  Having the other lifters around me is helpful in motivating me because I don't want to be left behind.  I don't want to be caught.  I don't want the other lifters to be able to do the same things I'm doing.  I look at the guys weights and think "one day i'll be doing that". But before I can get to those weights I've got to fix my technique. Annnnnd I probably need to be a little nicer and easier on myself.  I've been doing this for a year by myself and developed god knows how many bad habits, and I've been at TWO practices at Bridgewater and want everything to be fixed, now.  Good and bad things about that.  Good thing: I want to get better quickly. Bad thing: it takes time.  I have time, but I need to be purposeful with it.  Focus.  Where's my 120%?  What percentage of that is going to be put into beating myself up and what percentage of that is going to to put it into getting better.  It wasn't perfect today- but I'm working towards that, one practice, one exercise, one set, one rep at a time.  Each day is a chance to get better.  Tomorrow is another chance.