nervous and excited

Hi y'all!  I'm getting better.  I've had weight over my head the last few days and have been making progress with my lifts and I am anxious and excited to get going and to be back at 100%.  Getting back to 100% is both exciting and nervous.. Exciting because I want to be competing again and I have started to make my way to that point.  I have taken the bar and have put weight over my head (35kilos as of last friday). it's not pretty or necessarily smooth, but it's a lot more and a lot better than anyone (ellyn or myself) was expecting or thinking at this point.. no go deacs

Nervous. Nervous because i dont want to get hurt again. i dont want my wrist to hurt at all. i want it to be normal. and better than it was before it got hurt. and i'm not at that point right now. nervous. no matter how much i feel like i'm prepared and ready for the next step in recovery, it gets daunting looking at where i am now and where i need/want to be.  But i guess that's not fair of me to do that to myself... I need to take it one day at a time.  I need to be patient. it's hard though. waiting and going slow and pushing it, but not too far or too fast.  It's a fine line and i just want to be done and over that line.  

sorry if this post doesn't make sense.. i took nyquil almost an hour ago and it feels like it's taking full effect. oh joy.